For so long, Iโve struggled to be myself on this platform. I used to write out of passionโas a way to express myself. But somewhere along the way, I lost sight of that.
I donโt even remember when I stopped writing because I loved it and started writing for engagement instead. Donโt get me wrong, thereโs nothing wrong with wanting likes and interactions. But I reached a point where I wasnโt writing what I truly wantedโI was writing what I thought would get more likes. And when I did pour my heart out into a post, only for it to get little engagement, I felt heartbroken. I deleted so many posts because of thisโฆ until eventually, I stopped writing altogether.
Thatโs why I havenโt written for almost a year now. Not because I had nothing to say, but because I kept wondering, whatโs the point if no one likes it?
But not anymore.
From today, Iโll write what I truly want. Iโve also republished all the posts I once deleted just because they didnโt get enough engagement. They mattered to me then, and they still do now.
Another truth: Iโve struggled to connect with you, my subscribers. Iโve tried, but the truth is, I donโt even know how to. I see other newslettersโhow engaging they are, how theyโve built communitiesโand I wish for something similar.
I may not have that yet, but in shaa Allah, Iโll keep writing from the heart. For myself, for anyone who resonates, and for the love of it.